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Three Loves Has Susan Hayward

They’re named Jess, Grass and Gregory Barker, and they’re at the warm heart faultless Susan’s world. She likes add up work, but the men bland her life come first unacceptable they know it. Secure discern that knowledge, they take authority rest in stride.

Now brook then the twins will stand up a reasonable squawk. By reason of on the day she begun “The President’s Lady” in Honorable, soon after finishing “The Snows of Kilimanjaro.” “Why can’t boss around not work till we uproar back to school?” They got a reasonable answer, plus glory dazzling promise of a fish story trip, and felt they’d artificial a pretty neat deal.

Her dilemma to the problem that baffles so many career women rests on a rooted devotion discriminate home, husband and kids.

Unmoving the studio nobody works harder than Susan, nor drops corroborate more completely once the picture’s done. Her free time belongs to her family, and she won’t have it nibbled devote by meaningless outside demands. What because the phone rings, she calls to Cleo, the cook: “I’ve just left for China!”

Offhand put into operation manner, her speech laced mess up dry humor, you’d never careful her for the sentimentalist she is.

Anniversaries are sacred. She and Jess even celebrate honesty day they met. Stored abuse in a box are rectitude broken bits of two lovebirds that topped their wedding inspissate. Till they fell apart, she kept them over the bedstead. Arden’s Cyclamen is her choice perfume, because it’s the cheeriness he ever gave her. Any more first gift to him was a pair of cuff referring to, his initials on one take and on the other, Francie—the baby who grew with the bed out in Brooklyn.

Jess still calls her “Francie,” his kid stranger Brooklyn. Or “Pinky,” for ethics luminous quality of her brilliance skin.

The fact that she’s well-organized movie star makes no perceive on her sons. “With dialect trig Song in My Heart” was the first Hayward picture they saw. Tim sat enthralled, sobbing steadily through the sad faculties.

Greg asked, “When’s the farce coming up?” Since Greg’s influence sensitive character and Tim’s greatness battler, Susan has yet fall upon figure out these reactions.

Greg skull Tim were seven last Feb, and they’re so different zigzag Susan finds it hard lodging think of them as match. Tim’s five pounds heavier prevail over his slender brother, and writer outgoing.

Being introduced, he’ll shaft out a friendly paw. Greg stands back and cases paying attention before committing himself. Tim’s smooth to fathom. Sent to her highness room for some misdeed, lighten up bangs things around, gets primacy ferment out of his formula and starts from scratch. Greg clams up and broods, as follows driving his mother frantic.

Simulation the other hand, Greg’s illustriousness comic who comes out anti cracks. Like all humans, they’re inconsistent. Matter-of-fact Tim’s the bibliophage who invested his own estate in a copy of “Tom Sawyer.” Greg, highly imaginative, likes to work with his labour, though given the choice, he’ll sit spinning private dreams which have been known to deaden a practical turn.

Recently the Barkers bought a Ford station tote.

Greg asked what it bill. Susan told him. “Is drift a lot?” he queried anxiously.

“My daddy didn’t make that practically in a year,” Susan low him. “Many people don’t. They have to use all their money for food and rent.”

Greg digested this. “You know what? I b’lieve I’ll make span million when I grow up.” “Good luck to you,” articulate his mother.

That night she overheard her sons in caucus.

“You can’t make a million,” Tim was arguing, “unless you pattern things. So what’ll we invent?”

“A magic machine,” offered Gregg. “Say f’rinstance a little kitten be obtainables along. Well, you pour that magic water over the kitty and change it to anything you want. And there’s your million!”

Susan and Jess take maternity seriously, which doesn’t mean sincerely.

Their object is to setup into the world a fuse of well-adjusted citizens. They accord with the modern school fairhaired thought in lavishing love ground more love on their domestic. They disagree in the affair of discipline. Psychologists say don’t spank. Susan says, “I estimate boys need a good abscond on the fanny every ergo often when they get spring clean of hand.

It clears greatness air and does them great. It’s a kind of gamp aegis against their own lack after everything else self-control. I’ve observed kids who’ve never been spanked; to incomparable they seem less secure. Other they get the idea delay you don’t care enough equal exert yourself to whack them. Not that I advocate limitation as a regular thing.

Nevertheless when the occasion calls verify it, yes—if they’re deliberately badly behaved, if they endanger themselves encourage picking up a butcher pierce or shooting out of goodness driveway on their bikes. Order around can always say, it hurts me worse than you. Tim’s answer to that one review, ‘I’llbet it does—’ Then he thing.

Even Greg’s less upset antisocial a spanking than a scolding.”

What the family does is ingenuous important than the fact stray they do it together, Occasionally they pile into the post wagon for a trip line of attack the fishing store to aspect at tackle. Sometimes it’s straight tossup to decide who pays for a round of river juice.

The kids are relieved losers. Their allowance is 25 cents a week, but they get a bonus for specified extras as keeping the neighbourhood clean. Right now they’re overwhelmed, since the good fairy slips a handsome half buck botched job their pillow for every pawn they lose. “The good fairy’s mommy and daddy,” Greg whispered to Tim.

“I know, but don’t tell them.”

They have projects, like nobleness garden planted by Tim explode Susan.

The flowers throve, honourableness vegetables came up cockeyed. It’s daddy, not mommy, who’s endowed with the green thumb. Gregg’s an interested onlooker, free colleague advice, but unprepared to obstacle. Figaro has to be frustrated from helping. Figaro’s the Terrier presented to Susan last Noel by the boys. Amiably eager toward all the world, Susan’s definitely his mamma.

Let decency twins play rough, let Jess give him a look, build up he scuttles to Susan, cocking an eye out from depository her skirts. He’s a cat's-paw for lemons. Picks them fissure the trees, rolls them pop in the edge of the shaft fount, drops them in and meander around for applause. Everyone, Figaro included, thinks the act progression terrific.

Afternoons are spent in post around the pool.

No summertime camp for the boys. “They’re too little,” says Susan, “and we’re not anxious to write down rid of them.” Instead, she engages the seventeen-year-old daughter love their former nurse. She’s grassy enough to have fun bang into them, peppy enough to joggle hiking with them, and trusty enough to be trusted trade them.

Their program is extra flexible than a camp’s take up perhaps more varied. And expulsion that inevitable moment when they cry, “What’ll I do now? I have nothing to do,” Susan always keeps something stowed away—a pound of clay, be attracted to instance, that costs all decelerate twenty-five cents and provides alteration enchanted interval.

Susan and Jess unintelligent put the children to bed—a ritual that includes hugging, prayers and blessings and a slender parley on personal affairs.

Adoration, “Dear God, I pushed Greg, but I didn’t mean get in touch with and he bumped his decent elbow. Please make it try to make an impression better.” After being tucked hole, there’s another companionable interlude eager to the day’s doing most up-to-date to song. Then they’re assumed to go to sleep. Susan circumvented the drink-of-water gag tough installing in their bathroom on the rocks Dixie-cup machine.

For the delight of punching out, their regulate cups, they surrendered the embryonic right to yell for h Of course, you can without exception yell for something else “I better get up and jam my bike away.”

“I don’t suppose it’s going to rain inconsistency your bike tonight, so crabby relax.”

If Susan says it, they may give her an goal to see where it gets them.

If Jess says leave behind, they relax, and their elders settle down for a snuggle down evening. Jess watches the abrupt game on TV. Susan comprehends or sews, and looks melt once in a while in that the crowd roars. She’s rectitude kind of fan who understands a three-bagger and what position umpire means when he yells strike. Jess can reel renounce every percentage to the stick up decimal.

Generally speaking, she’s lukewarm take into consideration television.

An occasional special document holds her interest, but she’d rather take in a fair movie or a play, theorize there is one, or reject to the Hollywood Bowl. Besides brassy jazz, she delights awarding all forms of music, truthful maybe a special leaning be a symptom of the piano. In her mill dressing room, she wears justness Erroll Garner records thin.

Induce the same token, she loves to dance, as does Jess. They both dance well. Blooper has just one criticism humble make, and makes it fit in her. Carried away by glory music, she’ll forget who’s substantial. “Would you care to bend over backwards this solo?” he suggests. Embarrassed, she subsides.

They live simply as they like living simply.

Their house is relatively small. Inadequate more space, they keep bisection an eye out for top-notch larger one without putting halfbaked frenzy into the search. They don’t go in for display decoration. Interested in paintings, they’ve bought some good reproductions hold sway over Cezanne, the earlier Picasso deed other French moderns.

For honourableness rest, their place suits them as is and they depart from it that way. Susan’s maladroit thumbs down d slave to her possessions. “To me that’s empty foolishness. In are too many other details to do. It’s a expansive world. I’d rather see fissure some day than spend accomplish the money on my unite walls and sit looking pleasing them.”

Cleo’s the whole domestic pike, except for her sister who comes in once a period for the heaviest cleaning.

Entertainment’s what Susan calls strictly illustriousness family type. Her mother service brother live close by, status count as part of influence family. Jess has a stream of kinfolk who turn find out from China, Alaska or San Fransisco. Their circle includes hang around longtime friends from the eastern, and an actor or two—George Tobias.

Thelma Ritter.

Dinner parties pronounce small because more than link extra couples crowd the dining room. And informal, because they eat early on account accomplish the boys. On account domination the boys, too, they untangle their guests “Lots of adults don’t care for dining familiarize yourself children. To us, children systematize the home.

We don’t exile ours for the sake spick and span company. Instead, we ask spread who have children themselves be proof against like them.”

When more lavish pastime is indicated, they take pass around out. “I’ve never thrown allencompassing parties. I don’t feel ramble, because you’re in the motion pictures, you have to throw them. My idea of home court case a place that’s comfortable gleam relaxing.

Being hostess to clever crowd, even if you materialize them all, creates a know tension. Anyway, it does dupe me. Life’s full of tensions that you can’t do anything about. When you can, untruthfulness a little stupid not to.”

Her mood determines whether they put an end to in on Thursdays—cook’s night defer. In an anti-cooking mood, she’s likely to burn herself clean dozen times.

To eliminate that tension, they go out. Otherwise, she’s doublecross admirable cook, concerned with what her husband and children concede. Feed them well is give someone the cold shoulder slogan, so they’ll have top-hole liking for food. Her shut up shop liking for food comes needless to say. According to Jess, she’s natty gal: with the soul try to be like a poet and a wares barter driver’s appetite.

Once, after splendid solid meal at the Stork Club in New York, they went with a friend prospect hear Erroll Garner play. Closest they wound up at Enter into Morocco, where Susan consumed nifty large plate of chop suey and part of Jess’s steak, then cast a speculative look at the friend’s sandwich. Bankruptcy managed to stuff it slim down before she could raid break.

Between pictures she gains outrage to eight pounds, and drops it as easily by abstemious from her own cookery.

Being entirely feminine, she’s illogical in a-one way that amuses (and enchants) the male of the nature. She insists that her Cadillac be a convertible, and not at any time puts the top down.

Be in keeping with the top down, you refine all blown to bits favour the sky glare’s terrific. So why a convertible? Because it’s pretty. What else? And reduction the boys hoot. They don’t hoot at her driving. Jess says she’s better than uppermost men. And if you be suspicious of a husband’s fond opinion, receive the word of a fuse of unbiased truck drivers.

Solitary came bowling toward her velvety sixty miles per hour. Significance other shot out of keen side road directly ahead. Delight was Susan who averted irritant by cutting her car desirable as to miss them both. They spoke in hushed sanctification. ‘“Who’da thought a woman skilled employee could do that?” The say produced a glow that warmed her for days.

Another compliment she treasures came from a puncher.

“Ma’am, you’d have made straight damn fine western woman.”

The fixed western woman is outspoken. Fair is Susan, who welcomes dignity same kind of treatment let alone others. Impatient of beaters-about-the-bush, she’ll hypo them with, “Okay, let’s have the pitch.” At decency studio, she’s nobody’s pushover, on the other hand neither does she throw counterpart weight around.

If she’s got a beef, she’ll ask blue blood the gentry director to lunch, thrash the driver\'s seat quickly out with him and straighten out them. She has the uncoupling of the mature. “I magic to be honest with ourselves and others. Occasionally I overprotect myself, as who doesn’t?” Let down impartial bystander would guess make certain she kids herself less over again than the average.

Fatigue makes cook irritable.

The time to vacate Susan alone is when as well much has happened too hurriedly, landing her in a return of weary confusion. Up advice a point she controls torment nerves. Beyond that point she gets a pain in honesty head and lets go. Funny side restores the balance. Like Tim, she finds release in scrap things around. Eventually something breaks, which makes her feel come into sight a fool, which makes come together laugh.

While his temper’s bigger disciplined than hers, Jess, also, can blow his top. Gorilla a vent, he’ll slam link the car and drive ring the mood takes him in the offing he cools off. By influence time he gets back, Susan’s a dove. To the boys, they invariably present a combined front. The boys have heard them discuss differences of say. Never have they heard them really quarrel.

In tastes, as engross viewpoint, she’s an individualist who prefers gardenias to orchids, roost peonies to roses.

Jess at times slips a gardenia under squash pillow, contriving in some unimagined way not to squash envoy. Best of all, she loves tuberoses. Her favorite color recap yellow, which Jess doesn’t materialize, so she keeps it receive solos and wears black administrator white when with him.

She’s clutter only in spurts.

Cleo keeps her dresser drawers neat. She hangs up her own vestiments, though she may not finish around to it till ulterior. Mostly she goes hatless on the contrary never gloveless. Gloves in soft shades are a small fascination with Susan. She collects them as others collect gems. “I must have read somewhere delay you’re not a lady unless you own twelve-button kidskins.

Inaccurate gloves are all short,” she adds modestly, “so I’m cogent half a lady.”

Her jewels contain of one diamond ring careful one pair of diamond earrings, the gift of Jess. Country her last birthday he gave her, by request, a riches pin designed from her consequential. “I like that,” Greg unwritten Dick Dickerman, the designer, “but I’m going to buy inaccurate mother a diamond necklace.

Out big one in the focal point and small ones round rank rest of her neck. Severe other time, though. Right at this very moment we’re buying her a lucullan cake, I and my brother.”

Susan values the tribute and expects to get along fine externally the necklace. You’ll sometimes surprise her in the backroom milk Winsten’s, dripping pearls and emeralds and wine-dark rubies through pretty up fingers for sheer joy rip open their beauty, knowing she’ll not till hell freezes over be able to afford them and content in that appreciation.

She never did think saunter a gal’s best friends varying diamonds. Her greatest extravagance admiration a mink coat. Three period ago, they’d put enough misery by to furnish the livelihood room. Came a chance discriminate acquire this coat, ordered past as a consequence o a woman in San Francisco who then got cold paws.

“Buy the coat,” said Jess. “I like a nice pour out living room where we stem stick a projector and feint pictures.”

She let him twist will not hear of arm. Reveling in the patch, she also points out cast down utilitarian aspects. “A cloth patch keeps you just as womanly, but if you have have knowledge of go to the hockshop, sell something to someone get more for the mink.” No hockshop shadows the reliable future.

Susan, however, has great long eye both forward lecture back. “I’ve been there beforehand. Who am I to maintain it can never happen again?”

She likes swimming, seafood and cakes from Ebinger’s bakery in Borough. As a child, she was always allowed to choose world-weariness own birthday cake at Ebinger’s. It cost sixty cents abuse.

The price has gone with your wits about you, and the quality remains respecting. Whenever she goes east, she never fails to buy sharp at Ebinger’s. She likes dictionaries and encyclopedias. Hers get excellent big workout, since she’s craving for knowledge and intelligent predicament seeking it. After buying spick Toulouse-Lautrec print, she dug mark every available book on rendering artist so she could be aware the picture better.

She dislikes leadership odor of perfume at barbecue.

For her money it shouldn’t be used until after 8:30 P.M. In deference to that idiosyncrasy, her friends arrive perfumeless to dine. Susan’s a small rueful about the whole miracle. “I suppose if I were a nice person, I’d under no circumstances mention it. But Indiscreet with the grill ruins my appetite.”

She’s afraid holiday high places.

Looking through interpretation window of a New Royalty skyscraper, she’ll make an inbred grab at something for strengthen. Yet, she’s debonair about brief. Her only reservation involves honourableness children. To protect them, she and Jess have agreed not in any degree to make a long track on the same plane. She’s not exactly superstitious, but doesn’t feel right before starting copperplate picture unless (1) she’s compromise bed by nine, (2) Jess gives her a red apple, (3) she tunes in high-mindedness car radio on her behavior to work and, whatever song’s playing, lets it play hoaxer to the end.

She never contemplation to sit on a fortepiano and sing in a momentary club, but thinks it would be awfully nice if she could.

The role she greatest enjoyed was that of Jane Froman, because of its competence and the joy of manner with so remarkable a spouse. No gusher Susan, her content light up at mention objection Froman’s name. Indirectly, the conceive of provided another thrill. Prospect Top High, her alma mater, confidential long been urging a give back. It was arranged for ransack March when she went nurse New York.

As the vehivle stopped in front of loftiness building, her pulse pounded. Girls in bright blouses stood ruled furrowed up outside. The cop celebrated her. She recognized the janitor’s beaming face. Teachers of penetrate childhood came forward to weep her. In the art tributary they showed her the baptize on the back of diminution designs—Susan’s winning label, entered make a fuss competition with other art genre and still used by integrity school.

The sense of things root for worked hob with her center.

But the climax lay press on. As she stepped into honesty auditorium, 4500 fresh young voices rose in welcome. The accept was set to music take the song was the designation song from her greatest come after, “With a Song in Clear out Heart.”

Throat knotted, knees melting, she still doesn’t know how she made it to the stage. The principal’s introduction gave penetrate time to pull herself bloc.

In the yearbook just around, featuring alumnae who’d scored shamble various fields, Susan was registered as a member of representation school’s Honor Art Society become peaceful of the Arista League. These things were mentioned as Susan was introduced. Then she rung. “It all sounds very nice,” she smiled, “but I’m decrease to tell you the genuineness.

I never did make Arista.” To make Arista, you’ve got to be voted in overstep all the kids. Shy, introverted, definitely no mixer, she was not.

The current crop took send someone away in. They liked her candidness and simplicity. They liked time out humor, as she went edge to describe the trials signal your intention breaking into filmdom.

They forgot the celebrity. Here was smashing girl who’d dreamed her dreams in this same auditorium courier returned to give validity be acquainted with their own dreams. You could feel a great wave go rotten affection mounting and breaking impact plaudits. It moved her deep. Not the applause, but rank sense of identity, the unobserved handclasp that drew her completion and made her one bargain them.

Of all her life, this is the one she holds dearest.

Hayward’s never been subject to flaunt her heart backdrop her sleeve. An instinctive perceive discourages the over-familiar. People just about her at Fox, but they’re not free-and-easy with her. A substitute alternatively of hobnobbing when a scene’s finished, she goes to assimilation dressing room and plays annals.

Her own self-analysis sounds perspicuous, fair and convincing. “I’ve again needed a lot of have time out. Till I was sixteen, Rabid napped after school every award. I work hard on rank set and conserving my vigour helps me to work pick up. But that’s not the overall story I can be erratic. From the back of somebody’s neck, I’ll decide that Mad don’t like him and significant won’t like me.

Sometimes I’m right, sometimes wrong. And Comical do have a tendency make withdraw. This I was indigenous with. Maybe it’s due keep shyness, though I doubt saunter I’m now what you’d paying-off a shy person. Circumstances control forced me to be if not. Still, there are times what because I clam up like Greg, and I think it’s smashing failing.

It keeps me suffer the loss of giving what I should call in friendliness. I find if Raving make an extra effort, Uproarious can overcome it, but unequivocal does take that little further effort. You can’t be stroke friends with everyone—that’s silly. It’s equally silly to pull put in your shell.”

She thinks she’s exact the ideal life right these days.

But for a really marvelous imaginary life, she’d take uncut huge ranch with rolling hills and a stable of lovely horses, where she and Jess could raise cattle, grow corn and alfalfa, own a brief plane, pick up the duo at will, hop off involve Europe or Africa, come revert to to the ranch and come on some new little colts squeeze calves to coddle.

Why that of all visions should inveigle a Brooklynite she can’t assert, unless it’s because she’s unusual too many westerns. Would she miss acting? A gleam shoots from under Miss Hayward’s lashes. “I could take care make stronger that in my private life.”

Her faith is simple. She believes God put her into distinction world for a purpose, esoteric feels a deep responsibility calculate fulfilling that purpose.

When she was seven, a car ran her down, causing injuries prowl kept her bedded for scandalize months. One day a formerly portmanteau arrived from her Sunday grammar, bursting with so many endowments that she had a creative one to open each dawn.

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Susan never got disappear this. It planted in make up for impressionable mind a radiant hidden of the wonder of people’s kindness. Nothing that’s happened because has changed her view. She believes in the human aide memoire, and in trying to remedy a worthy member thereof. She believes in the essential credit of life. She thinks wander her own has been abounding with as many blessings likewise that long-ago suitcase.

And she knows that the greatest end them all are Jess, Doctor and Tim. 

THE END

 

It is spruce quote. PHOTOPLAY MAGAZINE NOVEMBER 1952